...realistic fantasy

kewlie picts!! :D

2006-04-06T23:17:00.000-07:00

haha. finally maglalagay rin ako ng picts sa blog ko.. :)) pero shh.. nakaw lng tong mga to.. :)) cant help it eh!! asteeg.. :)) ndi naman ako kilala nung pinagnakawan ko and its not offensive so.. bhala na.. :))

this one.. grabe.. ang hot nya dito.. :)) cool but hot. <3>

haha.. tapos.. eto.. sooper asteeg. kawaii!!!! haha. cutie.. :)) fun.. i like the guy na nagsasabi nung calm down.. ang cute nya.. :)) hmm.. i think ill make this a project.. :)) operation calm down pointilism!! haha. nerd na ba?.. haha. not quite. :P

grabe.. cant get enough.. :)) cguro in the near future.. gonna post some more kewl picts.. :D watch out na lang.. :))

grabe.. i feel the "urge"

2006-04-04T23:03:00.000-07:00

haha. whatta title. but that's what i really feel.. the urge to spill it all out here.. or else.. i'll burst.. haha. anyway.. una muna..

morning..
punta sa school.. to get my "lovely beloved" card. anyway.. kaasar english.. tska com sci.. grar.. anyway.. expected ko na talaga na bumaba un.. haha. tinamad. tapos.. masaya ko sa math grabe! haha. woohoo!! kewl. :D naamaze daw ba.. anyway.. un.. pero overall.. i think ok lng grades ko.. kaasar lang ung getting the card mismo.. kasi.. parang nung day na un.. usapan namin ng mga ndi pa nakakakuha ng class pict sakin na 8 -9 lang ako kasi i've got to go "somewhere".. haha. eh like.. 2 pa lang nkikita ko out of .. uhm.. cguro mga more or less 10.. haha. kaasar.. 9:30 na nga ako umalis.. tapos ala pa ring dumating.. tapos like sinisisi pa nila ko.. like.. gimme a break! un. :))oh well.. how sad.. nalate ako dun sa "somewhere" na un.. :)) i dont care.. :))

"somewhere"..
ung somewhere na un.. haha. tennis un.. bsta.. grabe.. kaasar ung tennis nung day na un.. it was like shameful and embarrasing and all.. lahat lahat na ng masama nangyari dun! like grarrr.. haha. sa sobrang galit ko nun ndi sinasadyang nakapagcompose ako ng 6msgs of anger sa phone ko.. haha.. buti na lng unli kundi bankrupt agad un.. oh well. :D thanks krung for the patience. :D i <3 you krungie. :D pero.. thanks rin dun sa burst out ko na un.. alam ko na ung dapat kong gawin.. haha.. what joy..

i think un lang muna.. haha. pero sharing lang.. right now.. sobrang addicted ako to neopets.. haha. you might think its childish but its a very good way to avoid boredom.. haha.. kung interested kayo mawala ang boredom sa buhay nyo kahit onting moments man lang.. tag lang kayo or comment tapos ill send you a link. :D yehey. haha. thanks a bunch! :D tag kayo ah. :D

btw,. gusto nyo ba ung new skin?.. if yes.. salamat if no.. why not?.. :))

...

2006-04-03T22:04:00.000-07:00

"when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve that thing."
- The Alchemist

update

2006-03-26T17:41:00.000-08:00

sheesh. i need to do some blog updating. anyway.

friday. = mall day. :D
yeah. i spent the night at the mall. usually. i wouldn't call a mall day a mall day without something special happening. well for me anyway. things could be called special. a lot of people i saw were pretty good imitations of the people i see in school. and a good number of people were in these weird looking uniforms. surprisingly, the mcdonalds at cyberzone/carpark wasn't flooded with checkered blue skirts. in fact, i hardly saw one cross our path. anyway. the sole purpose of us, going there was to get my dad's new glasses and of course, to get that "conditioned air". haha. what joy.

saturday = cousin's piano recital. B-)
that recital was weird. it was utterly boring and kewl at the same time. boring because, well.. i hardly appreciate classical music. but im not against them either.. kewl because.. it was fun watching the hands of the advanced players play. haha. it was like.. "weh.. kamay ba talaga nila un?.. ambilis naman. haha".. bsta un. weird.. and anggaling ng pinsan ko.. haha. someday.. i know he'll be a very succesful pianist. impromptu something ung pinlay nya.. fyi lng. :D

sunday = usual day. :D
as usual.. i did what i do on Sundays.. go to church.. haha. nothing really that special happened.. :D

monday = another usual day. :D
anyway.. i was happy that day, :D my dad got me the application form for the summer job i was hoping so much to get in. :D haha. due to my excitement.. i even misspelled my name and and my signature.. haha.. the usual clumsy me. anyway.. i think thats that. oh yeah.. and belated happy burtdei to mike and vince of saph!! :D ankewl kaya.. they're bestfriends and they celebrate their burtdeis at the same day.. how nice. haha

tuesday = "the day" :D
haha. tuesday.. march 28.. its 28.. haha. la lng. i know lots of people that celebrated their burtdei's that day.. my dearest sister. haha.. and patrice.. :)) special mention.. happy birthday!! oh yeah.. and as i have said.. nung monday.. ung form na un.. ung interview dapat nung tuesday.. so.. eh un.. pagdating ko dun sa "place" gulai.. punung puno ung stairs and like.. antatanda na ng mga "applicants".. i was seriously thinking of backing out.. eh.. un.. tapos nkita ko si teki,. :D un. tpos inantay namin sila chia, lucy and joy.. haha. joy, ganda braces ah.. chia and lucy.. asteeg haircut.. haha.. anyway.. eh napraning ako.. haha.. iniwan ko sila.. :)) pero.. umalis na rin sila kasi daw pede pa next time.. eh di next time nalng. haha. un. end day.,

wednesday = tennis day. :D
aun.. kahapon un.. haha. tennis day kasi.. dapat kahapon ung start nung tennis camp thing.. eh kaso.. pilit ng tatay ko.. punta daw muna kami sa pinsan ko na tennis player competitor something.. haha.. un.. tapos punta kami dun eh parang pinapapalo na ko ng bola tapos they were like "ay nako.. dapat ganito dapat ganito" eh tapos ala pa kong warm up nun.. and almost two weeks na ko ndi naglaro.. haay.. pasaway.. haha.. eh di un.. wawa nga ung pulutboy na nakalaro ko eh.. haha.. natyempuhan nya kong ala sa mood.. kaya un.. haha.. peace tayo.. erik ata pangalan nya.. ewan.. haha.. un.. bsta.. happy na ko kasi nadecide na ng tatay ko kung anung gagawin.. haha.. yehey. :D *cheers*

thursday = today. "doi."
un.. so balak kong gawin?.. second attempt at that summer job.. haha.. malay mo.. ala namang mawawala eh.. haha.. tapos.. nakapagblog update na rin sa wakas.. haha.. anhaba nito.. haha.. baka palitan ko na rin ung skin ko.. parang anliit nung space for the entries eh kung magsulat ako parang nobela na to.. hahah.. uncontrollable eh.. :)) haha.. un lng naman.. slmat. haha.. nga pla.. walang mangyayari bukas.. ala lng un.. haha. :D peace.

*poof*

fun.:D

2006-03-22T02:51:00.000-08:00

yehey. obviously.. im bored again. well.. wtever.

today was a FuN day. :D it wasn't supposed to be boring but then.. i got tired of texting and replying to people that i just got downright bored. well.. it really WAS a fun day. :D why'd you ask?.. well.. lemme see why..

firstly.
gee got me cleared!! i so love that girl. she was able to get sir reyes sign my paper and surrender stuff to the registrar. how nice of her. *bows down of thought of her* there. so one down to worry.. three more to go. :D at least it was less one. :D

secondly.
i did something productive not to mention sensible today. :D i cleaned my place. not really mine but due to the fact that almost all the things there are mine.. it can be considered mine as well.. haha. weird. anyway. along the way of sorting my things out and deciding whether into the trash can or into my treasured box they go, i found out something i did not expect to see. :D my grade 4 id. :)) i wish i had a scanner for you to see but then.. haha. who cares anyway?.. i just missed the times when my face was as round as a penny and i was as cute as a cute girl. haha. labo. bsta un. tpos.. i got so dirty that i almost forgot i was in my own house not outside the streets exposed to all the pollution in the world. haha. ang nerdy. haha.

thirdly.
i got to chat with my sister from abroad. haha. i got to demand a prize from her for having good grades. haha. yehey! i just wish she'd give it. if she would, it would brighten up my summer. haha. as if it isnt already bright from all the sunlight. gulai. what is happening to me. anyway. bsta un. haha

i think thats all i got to say.. haha. actually feel ko marami pa kong madadakdak pero.. andito na tatay ko. haha. kakain na kmi. pried tsiken. yammy. haha. bsta un. tag ka!! ala lng. haha. :D if ever taga pisay ka.. tanong.. pupunta ka next friday?.. :D un lng. haha

*poof*

haha

2006-03-21T04:43:00.000-08:00

asteeg. ngayon ko lang narealize na anhaba ko pla magsulat ng entry.. just what boredom can do. haha. anyway. bhala kayo.. :) idol ko makatapos ng blog na to.. :)) haha.. oh well.. pampalipas oras lng.

bored

2006-03-21T04:24:00.000-08:00

*sigh*
bored ulet.. might as well post something do to do something better than be a bum.. i'd have lotsa times for that in the near future. :D

anyway.. it was fun blog hoppin. it gave me an idea on what to do with this freakin thing. and it also gave me an idea on what was happening on other people's lives. not that i care anyway..

so.. i noticed that almost everyone were having this "omg-its-vacation-im-gonna-miss-everyone" mood.. well.. their mood is pretty contagious because i plan on doing this entry the same theme as theirs.. thanking and publicly apologizing for... uhm... stuff..

so..

to my dearest beloved marvelous wonderful adorable charming fantastic walastik pasaway section,, ToPaZ.. '09.

not all topaz people would and could and should probably read this but.. anyway.. lets get over with this.

topaz. hello. haha. grabe.. katapusan narin ng year.. yehey! andmi na rin nating pinagdaanang walkout ko, away ng mga tao, pagalit ng mga teachers, cramming este time managment ng mga projects, mga bagong mura este badwords na nilikha.. andmi na rin nating pinagdaanang contests.. oh well.. i just want to say.. na.. khit anu pang nangyari noon.. lets just bury the hatchet and remember mga fun stuff lng na nangyari satin. we've been through a lot guys.. and girls.. not to mention gayness and the pink fever. :)) sna khit may mga matanggal satin.. (wag sna..) and magiba iba na sections ntin next year.. wag ntin kalimutan na we were once topaz '09 and always will be. :D pasensya rin sa mga nagawa ko. haha. u know naman. kumukulot lalo buhok ko.. nagiging ulyanin na rin minsan.. :)) bsta. im always here for you topaz dearies. :D alabshoo topaz!!! :))

eto.. next.. for bruhas. oh well.. haha. ala naman atang nagbabasa ng blogs sa inyo pero anyway.. haha

mga bruha. tandaan nyo ang seven eleven. :)) dhil uhm.. naalala nyo pa ba yun?.. haha,, tska.. always be thankful kay daryll. :D kng ala sya.. ala tayo!! yeahba! haha. :D and yeah.. well.. magkaka-ipod na si patrice. thats so sad. haha. joke. aasenso na naman phone ni bennetz. haha. magkakabagong stuff na naman si ekay.. babalik pa dito si athee!!! yeahba. :D ndi na papagalitan si gegee.. si mara.. gaganda na naman ang hair.. well.. bsta girls.. b.r.u.h.h.a.s. tayo forever!! :)) kahit ia sections natin ah.. alang iwanan to men! itch ober!!! haha.

so un lng po. sa lahat ng mga taong nasaktan ko.. natulungan ako.. pagapasensyahan nyo ko and thanks,. peeps. lets keep in touch. :D wahah. gimik tayo!!!! haha. yehey!!

*poof*

if i am,, fave song as of the moment,, nine days,,

2006-03-20T23:51:00.000-08:00

finally.. read nyo lyrics ng song na to.. favorite song of all time.. astig.. by nine days.. album: madding crowd.. waaahh... sna may cd ako nito.. :((

-=if i am=-

so you're standing on the ledge
it looks like you might fall,
so far down, or maybe you, were thinking about jumping
but you could have it all, if you learned a little patience,
but though i cannot fly, i'm not content to crawl
so give me a little credit, have in me a little faith
i wanna be with you forever, but tomorrow's not too late

but it's always too late when you've got nothing,
so you say
and you should never let the sun set on tomorrow,
before the sun rises today

if i am, another waste of everything you've dreamed of
i will let you down
if i am, only here to watch you as you suffer
i will let you down

so you're walking on the edge,
and you wait your turn to fall,
but you're so far gone that you don't see the hands upheld to catch you
and you could find a fault,
in the heart that you've been handed
but though you cannot fly, you're not content to crawl

and it's always too late when you've got nothing,
so you say
and you should never let the sun set on tomorrow,
before the sun rises...

if i am, another waste of everything you've hoped for
i will let you down
if i am, only here to watch you as you suffer
i will let you down

so you're standing on the ledge,
it looks like you might fall.......

if i am, another waste of everything you've dreamed of
i will let you down (i will let you down)
if i am, only here to watch you as you suffer
i will let you down

the answers we find,
are never what we had in mind
so we make it up as we go along
we don't talk the dreams, i won't let go tomorrow
we won't make those promises that we can't keep.......

i will never leave you,
i will not let you down (2X)

senti mood

2006-03-16T04:45:00.000-08:00

*sigh*
nasesenti mood na naman ako.. oh well.. bkit ganito buhay ko.. im so confused.. naiirita ako sa way ng pagrespond ko sa mga tao tao sa paligid ko.. well.. i cant help it.. anung magagawa ko kung ganun talaga ako.. pero.. i think its not too late to at least TRY diba?.. *sigh*

kasi.. ganito ung situation ko.. as usual.. im trapped again.. this time.. its a harder trap for me.. my feelings are trapped by the boundaries of dignity, self respect and pride.. my heart is battling with my mind..

lots of things kung bakit.. una. si "saturn".. isang "textmate" ko na nagalit sakin and supposedly.. titigilan ko na sya.. but i cant get him out of my head.. and he's totally not my type.. so.. how the hell would you explain that?!

tapos si "batman".. antagal na ng crush ko sa kanya and finally knowing na may "iba" na xa.. the crush stopped.. the electricity, the sparks, the chemistry.. all gone.. the thing is.. i want him to know that.. kasi bakayou know.. bsta.. and im totally happy for them.. oh well.. pero hindi talaga maiiwasan na paminsan minsan.. titingnan ko sya and say he's cute. pero hanggang dun na lng. i don't consider that as a "crush".

hmm.. tpos si "elepante".. anlabo niya.. all i wanted to know was kung hanggang ngayon ung feelings nya.. but.. the problem is.. i dont know how.. kasi.. baka pagkinontak ko sya.. iba pumasok sa mind nya.. oh well.. buhay nga naman..

nu pa ba.. ayun! tpos ung aking love of my life na si ano.. panu un.. i dont know how to approach him.. i dont know how to say stuff at him.. kasi its as is ala talaga syang buhay.. ala syang pakialam sakin.. and.. andami ko ng kaaway sa kanya.. from all over the globe ah.. not just a city.. a globe. oh well.. wala na kong ibang alam na way para masabi to sa kanya.. my feelings are so strong.. na pag indi ko to nasabi sa knya.. i think that i would erupt. gawd, eto na..

kenshin!!! i lab youuuuuu!!!!!! <3

haha. that was fun. :D suddenly.. im not so frustrated anymore! :))

anyway// blgo update. :D

2006-03-15T03:44:00.001-08:00

yeah. im in the mood for english now. :D thanks to what happened awhile ago. yeah, man! :)) awhile ago, our feet (our = gee's and mine) almost cursed us for walking almost nonstop. well at least they couldnt for they're just our feet. they're under us. haha. whatta joke. (whadahel! that was a joke!? i forgot to laugh.) anyway. you might be wondering what we were doing. (gawd, that sounded bad.) anyway. we were running for our clearance.. haha. (our = gee's, mine and about a third of the class.) anyway. so there.

first stop. in the morning. well. i arrived late. i didnt remember the time.. well i hardly keep track of it so.. whats the use.. anyway.. and darn. i forgot my ponytail! good thing my hair was still damp. :)) whatta term. it wasnt that "unruly" yet. so, i was "welcomed" by a happy bunch of bruhas.. and a very wonderful scene. a yellow ground caused by the tree. how lovely. :D aun. so due to a circumstance beyond my control.. an unexplicable feeling of anger came over me.. so, as usual, i did what i usually do when im about to erupt. walk out and cool down for a moment. i looked for gee. :D partly because i needed my clearance and partly because i needed a friend. :D and guess what comforted me.. the lovely tv set sa dorm! how i thank God for that tv set. :D

so off we started for the "pasign po ng clearance moment". phew! whatta walk it was.. we roamed around the school.. i think went to the physics unit for i think 4 times then went to the pehm unit for about 5 times. if you only knew how "exhausting" it was. anyway. good thing we had each other. someone to laugh with. :D

we had the "unforgettable moment" when we asked sir luy to sign our clearance. :D first, the deal was at 1:00pm, he would open his doors for him to sign it. then, he moved it to 1:30. :D the thing was.. we went there twice. and the second time. we witnessed a tragic scenee.

when we arrived, we saw a bunch of girls screaming at sir luy. (i wont mention their names and sections for obvious reasons. :D) one was crying and still screaming at him. i myself was shocked. apparently, they thought that he lost their section's clearance. and their clearance was almost complete, lacking only sir luy's and soc sci. scene after scene, i was making myself recover and undestand both situations. then, i think sir luy remembered the color and went somewhere holding their clearances. a girl was still furious at him but the others i think were relieved and calmed down. gosh. that was an experience. i know i would forget but not soon enough. :D

up till here nlng. :D tag ka ah. :D thanks! :D

*poof*

:)) boredom

2006-03-10T18:55:00.000-08:00

haay. bored. as usual. uhm. yehey! end of classes na! :) lots of things to do! yehey. katapusan na ng torture! wihee! haha. pero ansaya. may gimmick next week! yehey! lets go to EK!! haha. pasaway kasi mga bruhhas eh nh.. nh?.. :)) anyway.. sna matuloy ung mga un.. kundi.. gulai.. lots of trouble. haha.

teka.. mag-eendorse lng po ako. :) asteeg album ng 6 cycle!! :) Panorama! haha. sulit money nyo! kahit hindi ako ung nagbayad nun. and hiniram ko lng sya. pero anyway.. asteeg pa rin sya!! :)

ayun.. nakuha ko na yearbook namin! haha. saya. pasaway. haha. mali ung birthday ko. gulai. i "was" born on "september" 28.. :)) oh well.. kaya mga taga holy.. :)) pasensya na sa mga mali! :)) pare-pareho lng tayo! :)) ala lng. haha. miss ko na holy.! sana matuloy visit ko dyan some time before magend classes nyo.. haha. ala lng. :) gulai. haha. wish ko! :))

haay. ansaya ng buhay. :) kahapon music concert. haha. anggaling kumanta ni mam crisostomo! gulai.. idol! :)) as in.. antaas ng boses nya!! :)) haha. kewl. pinakagusto kong part dun ung ano.. ung.. may disney songs. haha. hindi ko mahulaan kung san ung first! :)) anyway.. masaya pa rin sya.. haha.. idol ko ung guy from sampa.. haha! :))

haay. :)) lss.. sa i.. haay.. :)) yehey.. nagababalik loob na ko sa crux ko dati.. nako.. sana hindi sya galit.. :)) hindi ko sya pinansin for one whole year.. oh well. haha.. eto.. public apology na ah. :)) haha.. grbe.. ilove you kenshin!! haha.. grbe.. ankyut mo!! haha.. oh wel.. sna maging masaya kayo ni kaoru.. :)) number one fan mo ko!!! woohoo!!

haha. ala n kong masabi.. :)) next time ulet. :))

*poof*

frustrated..

2006-02-16T00:07:00.000-08:00

ayan.. mauupdate ko na rin ito sa wakas.. uhm.. im frustrated.. hindi ko na alam kung anung gagawin sa buhay kong ito.. kaya hindi ko kailanman nagustuhan ang balance of life eh.. kasi.. sa paniniwala ko.. kapag sumaya ako ng sobra sobra sa isang araw.. wala na.. sa susunod na araw eh malaki ang posibilidad na may mangyayaring masama.. un ang balance of life.. tulad na lang ngayon.. nagyong araw na ito.. pebrero 16.. pambihira.. ang sakit ng ilong ko dahil sa isang "malubhang" sipon.. tapos.. hindi pa ako nakaaral para sa achievement test dahil sa isang personal na pangyayari.. and ung earth sci test.. aus lng sna sya eh.. eh biglang sumunod ung soc sci.. pambihirang soc sci yan.. *roar* parang lahat ng lumabas dun sa test ay kabaliktaran ng binasa ko kagabi.. sort of binasa.. and mga tinuro samin ni mam.. sooooper iba.. grr.. bahala na.. :( ayan.. dahil sa "bahala na" napapahamak ang isang tulad ko.. *sigh* eto pa.. i saw.. with my own two eyes.. the proof.. of a lost hope.. *sigh* oh well.. tulad nga ng text skin ng maraming tao.. shocks.. "smile. be happy." kung iisipin mo nga naman.. hindi ganoon kahirap magpakasaya at kalimutan ang problema.. kaso.. ang mahirap dyan eh.. panu mo kakalimutan ang matagal ng naging bahagi ng buhay mo sa pangarawaraw?.. kung palagi mo syang nasa isip.. kung palagi mo syang nakikita.. well.. kung sa bagay.. maaga pa para sabihin ang mga to.. pero.. eto lang masasabi ko.. siguro nga eto na ung hiningi kong "sign".. cguro panahon na para.. magmove on.. pero.. hindi xa ganun kadali.. in the meantime.. hindi naman cguro masama kng pagpapatuloy ko diba?.. im trying.. trying.. trying.. and sna.. maging masaya na xa.. *sigh*

..bating panimula..

2006-02-11T22:34:00.000-08:00

sa panahon ngayon.. maraming tao ang hindi na mapagkakatiwalaan sa tinatagong sikreto ng bawat isa.. kahit anung ipilit mo ay hindi mo sila mapipigilang ibukas ang mga bibig at sinasadya man o hindi na mabulgar ang iyong sikreto.. ganito.. kunwari ay sinabihan mo na pangit ang suot ng friend mo na sa sobrang kapangitan ay ndi mo napigil na sabihin sa katabi mo na "akala" mo ay mapagkakatiwalaan.. natapos ang araw at nakalimutan mo na ang ginawa mong "panlalait". kinabukasan.. pagmulat ng iyong mga mata.. buong barangay nyo ay alam ang sinabi mo sa katabi mo.. delikado na.. kung tutuusin.. mas matino pa na sa harapan mo mismo sinabi na ipinagkakalat ang sikreto para malaman mo kung kanino binulgar at para makagawa ka agad ng matinong rason.. *sigh* ang hirap na ng buhay ngayon.. kaunti na lamang ang mapgkakatiwalaan ng sikreto.. kaya.. ikaw [blog] na lng ang pagsasabihan ko ng mga ito.. para kahit papano.. kahit sikreto.. alam ko na kakalat.. dahil hindi naman tlga ito maiiwasan.. ang ikinabuti nga lamang nito ay.. alam ko na kumalat dahil ako mismo ang nagkalat.. at pagising ko sa umaga.. wala na akong pakialam kung buong barangay ay sumusugod na sa akin.. bakit? kasi handa na ko.. dala ko na ang itak ko.. sapagkat.. ipinagkalat ko ang sikreto ko..
tama ba yun? sikreto ko ang ikinalat ko ngunit sila ang nagagalit? hindi diba? ngunit.. sa buhay na ire.. meron pa nga bang tama? a oo.. may isa pang tama na natitira sa buhay ko.. at "siya un.." *sigh*